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well. gonna throw out all my bad feeling.

its about... you know la. my hubbies. SS501.
it was a sunny morning when I found a realllllll bad news that make me sooooo down like crazy. i didnt think that i will face a such condition. damn. i havent got prepared yet! never got a feeling that this would happening.

i opened my twitter page and read the tweets come out on my timeline one by one. once i read a tweet that was showing an URL, with a crying emoticon --> :'(. i was so curious, but still didnt get a feeling of bad news. it might be about.... nothing. I THOUGHT.

but then, I clicked the link and wait the internet loaded the content of the page. its a blog, a KPOP fanblog. it showed a post. the title of the post itself made me truly down alrd. it was "KIM HYUN JOONG LEAVES DSP AND SS501"

i thot, "what the heck! impossible! this news must be lying". then i read the entry of the post. it said that my leader, my Kim Hyun Joong had signed an exclusive contract with KeyEast agency owned by actor Bae Yong Jun.

trust me. i was really shocked. tears fallin down on my cheeks. suddenly leader's old promise come out to my mind.

"I wont leave DSP even if they pay me a million. except if DSP kick me out"

"I'm going to be with SS501 until the 50th anniversary!"

and that made me even more sad. how come he broke his promises?? what does he think on his mind, until he decide to leave DSP and SS501??

those unanswerable question keep ruining my mind. I tried to believe him, with his promises, but it was really hard. what will you do if the fact says the opposite? easily ignore it?

lucky you. because i cant do that good. i was really mad. i even thot, "did he decide to out from DSP because he wanted to be famous? more that his current popularity? or he did out of DSP because of contract payment? is it more than a million?"

i tweeted my feelings, and you know what? several TS blamed be, and others said, "dont judge him like that T.T"

i felt really sorrrrrry. how could i blame and judge him like that?! harsh.

rightafter, i tried harder to believe in him more. my twitter friend, danika unni said that people are changing. HyunJoong might be changing too.

i know. everything do changing except the changes itself.

then what to do?? i was really mad, really want to blame someone but i dont know who! i released my anger to my tweets, confess and declare whats in my mind so that ppl know. actually, I did hope KeyEast and HyunJoong see. what a fool.

but I did believe that HyunJoong always love his otter, gorilla, horse and turtle.

suddenly, my mind recalled SS501's funny and lovely moments, in their TV programs like thanks for waking us up, the mission, idol world, etc..

and suddenly, their lovely brothership come into my mind as well as their moments.

HyunJoong always bring KyuJong's photo in his passport. once when he got to Japan for a promo, a fan asked him, "why oppa bringing KyuJong's photo??" and he replied "for me to see if I miss him in japan ^^"

that kind of things successfully made me bursted with tears but also made me believe them 501%. i know HyunJoong won't leave his brothers. what will happen to Baby if he leaves? i cant imagine. thats why HyunJoong won't leave SS501 ^^

lets all hoping for SS501's very best future.

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hehe~ I know it'd be a junkies but its okay anyway, since it is my own blog. I'll tell about several boys I think about all the time. mostly. keke.

1. SS501. I put them in one place bcause all of them are in the same room in my heart, LOLs. but there's still a chart on the 1st place. well thats quite confusing =___=

members [sorted depends on their age]:
a. Kim Hyun Joong #1

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Jungminnie oppa~~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY~! saengil chukkae, selamat ulagtahun.
I can't believe now you're a 24 years old man! XD
now you've been a man, so behave like a man~! but please,
don't stop smiling. always and forever.
bcause it is the only thing make us smile. seeing your smile is the best thing I never knew I needed :)
so minnie oppa. I wish all the best thing for you.
I wish all you wanted all this time would become true.
I hope you'll always be the atmosphere maker of SS501
always love SS501. including baby jun :D
don't hit him anymore, okay XD~
eat well and stay healthy. I love you so much. neol saranghae~ ^^

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annyeong~!
uh~ actually rite now I'm totally upset, because of a silly butthead who doesnt know what she said. but anyway let me tell the beautiful dream first.

jd gini, tp pagi tuh gw mimpi indah banget seindah-indahnya, meskipun bkn yg pertama, tp tetep aja sensasinya gimanaaa gitcu. mimpinya pastilah tentang #SS501
dong, hehe.

gue ga inget persis gmn awalnya, tp yg pasti di mimpi itu gw lg ada di bus, dimana di dalem bus itu ada SS501! gilaaaa~~~~ sambil berkaca2 gue datengin seat mereka trus gw ngmg.

"excuse me.. may I take pic of you three?"

gue gatau kenapa mereka cuma bertiga, yg jelas di situ cuma ada Lead, Kyu, ama Saengie. mana lead *yg mana org yg paling gue cinta seidup semati<-- lebay* malah lg tidur, jd gue ngmgnya ama Kyu dan Saengie. gpp, tetep aja gue seneng 501%.

Kyu jawab. "yes please!" dengan senyumnya yg menawan bak seorang pangeran dari negeri awan. *sebenernya ga segininya juga sih*

trus gue foto2 deh, Kyu mah biasa aja tp si Saengie gaya2an ga jelas. emg dasar narsis xDD

tp tiba2 ada ibu2 dateng, pake kerudung. dia bilang "jangan foto2! busnya lg jalan"

gue sebel trus ngeliat ke arah Kyu. Kyu senyum manis trus gue bales trus gue balik ke seat gw sendiri. udah gitu gue ga inget gmn lanjutannya, tp tetep aja gue seneng banget xD

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and it is about the butthead.

wth banget dia tiba2 ngetweet "Gue ANTI-Korea! Kl nyanyi udah kayak mau tawuran, orangnya banyak banget"

ih please deh ya, emg siapa aja sih YANG NYANYINYA KAYAK MO TAWURAN??
lo udh kyk yg tau segalanya aja deh. padahal setau gue kebanyakan boyband ato girlband kr tu orangnya 5-7 org. emg ada yg lebih dr itu, tp cuma beberapa. palingan SUJU, SNSD, After School. trus apa lagi gitu? sotoy bener deh jd orang.

terserah ajasih lo mo anti korea apa engga. not my bussiness banget deh. tp pls deh kalo gatau jgn ngomong. paling sebel gue. apalagi ni bkn temen gw, cm kenal selintas. yg gw ga pake mikir lah mo ngontrog apa ngga.

hhhh sebel.

contohnya aja ni, boyband kesukaan gw banget, orangnya cuma 5 tuh. makanya jgn sotoy.
trus pasti lu ngmg gt soalny belum tau kan gmn kualitasnya? main ngejudge aja deh. kalo gatau diem aja.

ngiranya alay gitu? cupu? ga keren? lonya aja yg kyk gitu. blm tau sih.
gue rasa kualitasny org kr emg hebat bgt ko, ortu gw aja ngakuin. jgn bangga bisa tau band2 US yg banyak disukain orang deh. biasa aja. be different is always better.

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ohayooo~~

pagi2 gw udah ol haha. hari ini disuruh bapake buat tes kesehatan tp gue males banget sumfedehhhhh. pengennya ol ato ga tidur sampe entar waktunya bimbel. sekalian ngebayangin gimana kelanjutan TL (my ff, red.), masalahnya gue belum tau gimana caranya tu cerita yg sekarang lagi bersambung nyambung ke ending yang udah gue pikirin sejak lamaaaaaaa banget waktu gue mulai nulis cerita itu. yah kira2 liburan puasa kemaren lah.

oh iya. sebentar lagi--ga sih masih agak lama--dateng hari yg membahagiakan buat gueee! ahaha tanggal 3 April 2009, my prince, PARK JUNG MIN ulangtauuuun~~! haha kita, triple S udah nyiapin tag buat di tweet, #501carrotsforMal! asik asik deeeeh, entar ada perayaan di twitter. ikutan yaaa semua ^^

ga sabar deeeeh xD sayangnya gue ga bisa ikut gath di jkt buat jungmin *nangis di pojokan* sedih deh ga ada gath di bandung, wong kak ajeng yg dari bandung aja pergi ke jkt, jd siapa yg mau ngurusin gath bandung? siapppaaaa!!?? tp kak ajeng bilang entar kalo suatu saat mau adain gath di bandung, dia minta bantuan aku. hehe siap kak!

haduuuuuh ga sabar *deg deg deg*

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today,
what a special day~
really undescribable.
its not my graduation day, not valentine, not summer holiday, not lebaran day

IT'S MY KYU'S BIRTHDAY!

uoh~
if I can give sumthing special for him,
I will!
too bad, I'm here and he's flying upon the high sky, he's a star
my star, brighten up my life although it is rain.
because he's shining in my heart.
always and forever.

I bring the star with my footsteps,
and I hide it in my hold.
I won't let it go.

Kim Kyu Jong,
the one who made me fall for him, for SS501...
this birthday is special, as you are.

Happy Birthday Kyu,
we all love you =]

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holaa~~
first, gue mo cerita tentang kisah anggur, yang memberikan ide untuk mengabadikan sebuah nama akakak.
malem itu gue lagi online sambil makan anggur, pas liat anggur ijo, entah kenapa kok kebayang SS501 *kayaknya emang mereka mulu deh yg kebayang ama gue*
jadilah gue membikin ini;



huehehe itu kan warna ijo ijo gitu.. jadi ajah memberikan ilham XDD~~

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yang kedua gue mau share tentang buku catetan gue yg sangat penting sekali, isinya pelajaran-pelajaran sama gambar-gambar gajelas tentang apa ajah gitu.. keke.. asalnya itu buku biasa aja, terus gue kasih sampul bikinan sendiri, depan belakangnya jadi kayak gini;


kekeke.. sampul bagian depannya sih gambarnya random yah, tp sampul belakangnya sih isinya english translation dari lagu-lagu K-POP yang aku suka gituuu. foto Young Saeng ama Hyung Jun baby terpaksa banget di tempel di belakang karena di depan udah kepenuhan T.T
*abisnya foto leader 2 sihh kekeke*





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well, sebenernya hari ini itu gue lagi berdebar menghadapi UN yang bakal dateng bentar lagi. gue harus berjuang keras suapaya bisa dapet nilai UN bagus dan masuk ke SMA 3 Bandung yang SBI. I have to fight for this, cz I won't make my parent down.

jadi gue musti jarang-jarang online dan sering-sering belajar. hiks.
yah pokoknya gitu deh^^ doakan sayaaaa XDD~

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kalo afgan punya album judulnya confession no. 1, I'd make the 501st kekeke..

well, mungkin ini bisa juga disebut puisi. terserah aja mo sebut apa. but the words come itself.


I love the one that I don't even know who.
they're so far apart, but I do love them all of my heart.

loving them is something similar like tryna' catch the stars.

when I look upward, I can see the shine comes to bright up the whole world.
then when I raise my hand, it seems that the stars are so close with me.
but when I grab my palm trying to catch them, I got nothing.
the stars still so far away from me.

sometimes it make me down
but the shines make me feel like they're beside.

so,
no matter if they're a star, and I'm nothing.
no matter if they're so far away from me.
no matter if they don't know, how much I love them.

I'll love them.
bcause I don't think that I'd be able to throw them away from my life.

the name I love, once in this life. has becoming further and further away from me. I write your name on my heart and keep it forever. since that day I realized that I'll love you forever. though we can't be together, it still known as love.

the name I love, SHINee

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it's making an endlessly repeating trip, I find, I'm searching once again.. your voice inprinted in the wind, it's something I must forget..

Only One Day, SS501

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hari ini aku gak masuk sekolah karena sakit. uh~ gak enak deh sendirian dirumah. kerjaannya cuma tiduran, makan, nonton tv dan paling banter online.
online pun yang online cuma dikit, *yaiyalah jelas aja, secara org mah pada sekolah*
nah itulah gak enaknya musti sakit.
ceritanya aku itu kena radang, demam dan dokternya bilang 'dengan kemampuan yang saya punya saya belum bis memastikan kl ini bukan demam berdarah.' ah~~ dokternya bikin deg2an aja.

skarang aku lagi agak ada kerjaan dan atau harus apa. yaudh aku urus lagi blogku ang tidak teururus ini. *terpaksa banget*

oke. sekarang kita harus mulai darimanakah?
ah aku juga bingung~~
oiya mari aku ceritakan tentang mimpi aku tadi malem.
masa yah, tadi malem itu aku mimpi ngegendong anak bayi! ah~~ serem! *gak deng* yah pokonya aku inget banget tuh selimutnya warna biru. ckckckckck
gatau deh maknanya apa. mungkinkah cuma sebuah bunga tidur ataukah sebuah pertanda akan sebuah hal?
no one knows

*buset apaan sih ni geje banget*

sorry..
let's talk about my favorite song.
aku lagi suka lagu crazy for you SS501.
yaa kan udah beberapa lama ini akut freak SS501.

aku suka banget bangian YS yang agak tinggi, yg bilang 'cz i'm so crazy for you' sama bagian JM yang nyanyi itu jg.. sumpah enak bangeeeeet..
sayang aku gak nemu liriknya XP
rap di bagian ahir jg gak nahhhaaaan..
ckck

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yang tengah keren banget ya :DDDDD

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ini gambar double s. saya edit sendiri :)
I love SS501

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Hoo~~

[Hyunjoong]
Gu irun hessari bichinun noui shingguron mosub ne nunmangul kajyogan kalka

[Hyungjoon]
Oh girl gakkai dagagaltemyon sumi maghil godman gatha jakku dashi dorasoge dwe

[Gyujong]
Do isang irom andoenunde naui mamul gunyoga nukkil su ig

[Jungmin]
Dorabwabwa jigumiya gidaryo on gobeg

[SS501]
Show me your eyes and give you my love

[Hyungjoon]
Nan niga johungol love you forever

[SS501]
Come to my heart

[Youngseng]
Listen my song for you boyojulke nol hyanghan mam gobeghalke gudemane wangjarangol

[Jungmin]
Girl no tonan nunnerin gori namgyojin naui baljagug yophe sujubge soigonhe

[Youngseng]
Dajimhe hayan nunbidchorom sunsuhage nol saranghagedanun gol

[Gyujong]
Yagsoghalke onjena nol jikhyojulgorago

[SS501]
Show me your eyes and give you my love

[Hyungjoon]
Nan nega johungol love you forever

[SS501]
Come to my heart

[Youngseng]
Listen my song for you boyojulke nol hyanghan mam gobeghalke gudemane wangjarangol

[Gyujong]
Nol bomyon dugungoryo suchyoman gajiman

[Hyunjoong]
Onurun noege igodman jonhago shipho

[Youngseng]
Nol saranghe

[SS501]
Show me your eyes and give you my love

[Hyungjoon]
Nan niga johungol love you forever

[SS501]
Come to my heart

[Youngseng]
Listen my song for you boyojulke nol hyanghan mam gobeghalke gudemane wangjarangol

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How could you, I can’t believe you’re doing this
You’re so wrong, but I still love you..
the phone calls you called everyday. Telling me that you miss me. It was you who couldn’t stand even an hour without me. But now you’re like a stranger for me. It is like the night. When I called you and you told me that you’re busy. But why must I see you, stand by someone else and looks so happy. you carelessly you cast me aside, how could you. I’m sorry oh my boy, you change too much. Oh my boy, we both know well, don’t deceive me. Coz I know you’re everything.
I’m sorry without boy, don’t do that to me, oh my boy. My feel when you’re by my side is not one of my despair or misery, please be nice to me.
Lots of smile and your happy eyes, your cute way of talking and lots of sweet whispers, no longer for me. Please don’t do this to me, not to me. Hold your hand, happiness in your face, like we’ll last forever. How should I understand, when you look at me and so am I. I’ve tried to figure it out. Please my love. I wanna hear what you are thinking about.
I’m sorry oh my boy, you change too much. Oh my boy, we both know well, don’t deceive me. Coz I know you’re everything. I’m sorry without boy, don’t do that to me, oh my boy. My feel when you’re by my side is not one of my despair or misery, please be nice to me.

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